My New World

  Hello Today, Surprisingly, at the break of early dawn — around five — I found myself awake, with the gentle yet powerful sound of prayer echoing through the stillness like a blessing in my home. Sipping my morning coffee while sitting on the swing, I couldn’t help but wonder: Why have I been feeling so restless and confused lately? Why am I constantly searching for answers everywhere? Where is my gratitude for this beautiful life — a husband who loves me deeply, a smart and intelligent daughter who’s ready to conquer the world? The universe has given us so much and more. Yet instead of feeling thankful, I find myself caught in the trap of restlessness. In this moment, I’ve made a decision — to enjoy my life (though I don’t know how long this feeling will last). But today, I’ve decided to visit the temple, spend some time in meditation, and try to reconnect with the girl within me — the one who was always happy, bold, full of energy, and most of all, full of gratitude. Yes — this...

Today, I was sitting and thinking about "HAPPINESS." What is happiness? Money? Health? A job? Spending time with family? Friends? Freedom to travel? Is money the answer to everything? Can money solve all our problems, or can happiness be bought? Because, in some way, all of the above seem linked to money. If I have enough—and more—I can travel, meet more friends, party, join a gym, hire dietitians, and buy the best medical insurance (for safety). But then I wonder… am I missing something about happiness? Aren’t all of these things materialistic? What about PEACE ? Inner peace —and how do I find it? Could meditation be one way to explore something hidden deep within me? I want to reflect on this more deeply. Cheers, Jyoti

 Hi,  This is the new chapter of my life, where I want to talk about my life publicly.  My current state of my mind CONFUSED!!!! I don't know what should I do as since my childhood when someone used to ask me that what would you like to be when you grow up.. guess what I used to say...yes yes everyone else used to have dreams like doctor, engineer, teach, designer and so on but ME, I just wanted to be a MOM (just like my MOM). For me, my mom had and still have a perfect life. A home maker, a loving and humble husband. Smart, beautiful daughters (youngest is the cutest one.. yes that's me). This is what I always dreamt about to be and now after 23 years of continuous years of working and pervious to that 18 years of studying... I finally get to LIVE MY DREAM :). Yes i am now a full time stay home MOM. But why am i not happy, something is missing. I know it cannot be money or respect.. then WHAT is the question? I cannot describe this feeling, struggling to put it in word...